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New Moleskine: March 2009

Sun, 05 Apr 2009 05:24:25 GMT

Name Amy
Location Charleston, South Carolina, USA
University College of Charleston
Major English
Concentration Creative Writing
Emphasis Fiction
Job Makeup Artist

This is my first month with my Moleskine. I love it.

be warned of LARGE pictures

front cover

I "laminated" a paper die-cut with tape. The die-cut came from the Making Memories project pad linked at the bottom of this entry.

personal page

I "laminated" a paper die-cut with tape. The die-cut came from the Making Memories project pad linked at the bottom of this entry.

first page

I took a bunch of paint swatches from Lowe's like two years ago, and I never succeeded in doing a collage with them until now. It's supposed to be an abstract sunset type thing, but in the end I just settled for having fun. Cut up paint swatches and used rubber cement. I "laminated" it with tape which sort of took away from the appearance but will help with durability.

year view

I "laminated" a paper die-cut with tape. The die-cut and stickers came from the Making Memories project pad linked at the bottom of this entry.

march 02, 2009

I'm in a long-distance relationship, and my boyfriend was in town for the first half of this week. Everything's pretty self explanatory here. Lyrics by Death Cab, magazine cut out from an ad in Nylon.

march 09, 2009

Magazine cut outs from Nylon. Jason is my boyfriend. My "goal" refers to my work. Studio Talk was an event we did.

march 16, 2009

The colors are a little distorted--I used colored pencils on the little doodle on Tuesday, and it reminds me of Oh, the Places You Will Go. :D

march 23, 2009

march 30, 2009

I color-code like crazy. Orange is my Late 19th Century American Literature class. Fuchsia is for my weight-loss tracking. The maroon color is for my Contemporary Social Problems class. Light blue is for my James Joyce class. Green is for my Advanced Fiction Workshop class. Purple is for my Drawing I class. The light teal color is for any extraneous appointments, activities, or reminders I need for myself. Black is for work. Red dots next to my classes indicate I skipped that class (don't count them, please). Brown is for television programs.

Things I Use & Love
Classic Wooden Alphabet Stamp Set at Barnes & Noble for $6.25.
Making Memories 8x8 Project Pad Whimsy [can't find anywhere online] from Target (on sale for) $6.98.
Moleskine XL Soft-Cover Weekly Planner + Notebook from Borders for $19.95.
Post It Pastel Notes
Jackie! Simply Chic Stick-on Notes & Flags [can't find online] from Walmart.
Nicole Crafts Ink It Up! Pigment Ink Stamp Pad from AC Moore.
Staedtler 20 triplus color box from Staples.
Pilot Pen Precise V5 & V7 Fine Point Black Pens.
Sharpies.

x-posted
first post

beauty products

Wed, 25 Feb 2009 04:38:23 GMT

all my british friends are doing this. my beauty products of choice.

Hair

Shampoo: Pantene Pro-V Brunette Expressions Daily Color Enhancing Shampoo

Conditioner: Pantene Pro-V Brunette Expressions Daily Color Enhancing Conditioner

Styling products: Bed Head TIGI Hard Head Hard Hold Hairspray, Catwalk TIGI Frisky Scrunching Gel With Attitude, Bed Head TIGI Mastermind Hair Candy for Separation & Texture. I don't swear by any of it. I really need a good straightener and a good hairdryer, but I can't make myself spend my money on hair-styling products because I really despise styling my hair.

Body

Shower gel: Dove go fresh Energize Beauty Body Wash

Body Moisturiser: Curél Ultra Healing Intensive Moisture Lotion. (I don't have dry skin but I love lots of moisture and no scent.)

Deodrant: Dove go fresh Cool Essentials.

Fake Tan: Absolutely none.

Face

Cleanser: Dove Deep Moisture Face Cleansing Cloths, Clinique Rinse-Off Foaming Cleanser.

Eye Makeup Remover: Clinique Take The Day Off Makeup Remover For Lids, Lashes & Lips, Clinique Rinse-Off Eye Makeup Solvent.

Exfoliator: MAC Volcanic Ash Exfoliator

Moisturizer: Clinique Dramatically Different Moisturizing Lotion

Face Masks: I have an Arbonne fyi Face Mask I like but I can't find it in my bathroom or online. They might not make it anymore..

Make-up

Primer: MAC Prep+Prime Skin

Foundation: It varies, but my favorites are MAC Studio Fix Fluid, MAC Studio Fix Powder + Foundation, and MAC Studio Sculpt.

Foundation brush: Varies depending on the foundation I use, but my favorites are MAC 190 and MAC 187.

Concealer: Don't use it often, but MAC Studio Finish Concealer for blemishes, MAC Select Moisturecover for under eye area, and MAC Studio Sculpt Concealer.

Powder: MAC Mineralize Skinfinish Natural.

Blusher: MAC Peachykeen, MAC Trace Gold, MAC Mocha.

Bronzer: MAC Golden Bronzing Powder.

Highlighter: Any of my many MAC Mineralize Skinifinishes, and MAC Mineralize Sheersheen Powder/Loose.

Eyeshadow base: Urban Decay Primer Potion in combination with MAC Paint Pot.

Eyeshadows: MAC. I have more than I've bothered to count. It grows constantly, so..

Eyeliner: MAC.

Eyelash curler: Shu Uemura Eyelash Curler

Mascara: MAC Plushlash and MAC Dazzlelash.

Lipstick: MAC.

Lipgloss: MAC.

Nail polish: MAC, OPI, and Essie for colors.. Seche Vite Dry Fast Top Coat my beauty products of choice.

dame edna / lash & dash

Sun, 11 Jan 2009 04:13:28 GMT

worked 8 hours today, it was slow and my legs hurrrrt. work 5.5 hours tomorrow.. hopefully it will be busy.

INTENSE LASH ACTION (say that five times fast...)

i look dumb and i'd been at work for nine hours when this picture was taken but these are the lips i wore at work :)

used:
prep + prime skin
studio fix
fix + ♥
golden bronzer
peachykeen blush
urban decay primer potion
bare study paint pot
dame edna royal tour eye trio
macroviolet fluidline
fascinating eye kohl
plushblack mascara
#2 lashes
(in the first few pictures..) hot frost
(in the last picture) magenta lip liner
gladiola lipstick
pink poodle lipglass

i'm such a worrywart..

well this was sufficiently depressing

Sat, 10 Jan 2009 16:42:54 GMT

i have three semesters left before i graduate and one starts on monday. i am feeling super anxious and intimidated about it.

i am taking a james joyce class that meets every monday for two hours and forty-five minutes. yes, i will want to shoot myself after each meeting. the class focuses primarily on ulysses, but also includes other texts by james joyce such as dubliners. i am so frightened of this class because i'm really not a huge fan of the era, and it's just so much reading. in fact, all of my classes are SO MUCH READING, except for my art class, which is SO MUCH FUN. i'm sure that will prove challenging, though, as well. i've never been a particularly good drawer. i like more abstract art.. aka, easier to fake. ha.

my other classes include advanced fiction writing workshop, late 19th century american literature, and contemporary social issues (sociology course). i'm really look forward to the latter two. i have the american lit course with amber and sarah, which is exciting in itself, but i'm also excited about the course because i really like the professor. he gave a guest lecture in my american literature class last semester and his presentation was the best i have ever sat through. and it was about kate chopin! truly, if you can make me enjoy kate chopin, you are amazing.

sadly, i am not at all looking forward to my fiction class. i just don't feel ready to start a new project. i can't even finish the one my mind is still in! writing the first fifty-one pages of my first novel was incredible, but it was also among the hardest things i've ever done academically, and it took so much time and energy and i just don't feel like jumping back into that boat. i haven't written a single word for my novel since the end of the semester, and now i'll be forced to come up with new ideas, and for short stories no less! writing novels is nice because you can be finished when you want to be. you can always say, "oh that's coming in the next chapter." short stories have a limit. heh.

i guess i really just needed to get off my chest how nervous i am about the upcoming semester. and how much i really would like to not have a job. there's SO MUCH READING. who would have thought? right? an english major with a lot of reading to do. i guess now i'm just complaining. i think, truthfully, my nerves are sort of shot. there's drama with my sister because she's being stupid again, and it makes me uneasy, and i'm just projecting that onto a semester that hasn't even started yet. sigh.

i'll write about that later, i guess. i have to get ready for work, and i work from 1:30 to 9:30 tonight. it's going to be a long, miserable day, fuck me. ugh.

i was a kitty cat!

Sat, 01 Nov 2008 15:08:05 GMT

does anyone remember me :D i sort of disappeared for a while.. anyway, here's my halloween makeup/nail art!

meow

USED/
studio fix
anastasia brow pencil
petticoat msf
bare study paint pot
blacktrack fluidline
plushblack mascara
#7s
espresso/haux/rich flesh eyeshadows
fascinating eye kohl
gesso eyeshadow
whirl lip pencil
faux lipstick

nails/
nightfall nail lacquer
neon 8 nail lacquer
vestral white nail lacquer
sally beauty supply nail art thing in black
sêche vite top coat <3

o hay

Thu, 21 Aug 2008 23:58:29 GMT

I'm back to using this journal and needed a more recent public entry than the one that was here before.

HI

Three of Three * Special Entry

Sat, 11 Feb 2006 17:41:23 GMT

Good afternoon.

As of today, I have been accepted to each of the three colleges I applied to.

College of Charleston, Coastal Carolina University, and Clemson University, in order of acceptance.

Actually, it feels weird, though I am satisfied. I'm quite calm, much unlike when I was accepted to CofC. I think it's because it's.. a conflict of interest. Not only was I expecting to be rejected by Clemson, I was expecting that rejection to help fuel my motivation to go to CofC. This (acceptance) kind of... doesn't help.

Coastal Carolina has offered me $1,000 to attend their University. Frankly I think I'm worth more than that but I'm sure the offer will increase as other scholarship offers are declined.

As some of you may know I have already put down my deposit and really got the ball rolling at College of Charleston. I am invited to a Shabbat dinner with the Jewish organization there in March sometime, which I may or may not attend. I want to, but definitely not by myself.

We shall see.

*deep breath*

74. Oprah Winfrey, James Frey.

Thu, 26 Jan 2006 23:36:29 GMT

I am more disgusted with Oprah and her show today than I care to discuss in depth. I would like to say that I am appauled that she would allow and condone guests on her show to make jokes insulting the character of other guests on her show, in their presence. Even during a live airing.

I have never idolized a person like I have idolized Oprah, but that is in the past now. I cannot say I don't admire her genius, because she has been, in other times of her career, one of the most amazing and inspirational people I have ever heard of. But today, she has upset me. I won't forget that. She has lessened herself as a hero in my eyes.

The short, witty comments she makes while interviewing an enemy - the ones I usually love. She used those on James Frey today, and I was disgusted. They weren't witty. It embarassed me.

The guests on her show. Interesting how they're all journalists and they all talked about telling the TRUTH. How the TRUTH is so important. What position in this world do they think they hold? Because they have worked hard to have their words put into a newspaper, amazing work on their part. Does that make their opinion higher or more TRUE than any other person? No. Especially not any more TRUE. A journalist saying they value the truth and are shocked by James Frey's supposed lack of it... it's almost laughable. I'm a lawyer and I've never told a lie. That doesn't happen.

I do not believe that James Frey lied. Had this been a nonfiction piece of work, he would have. But it is a memoir. It is published as a memoir. He said from the beginning that he changed names, characteristics, and events in the book to render the characters unidentifiable. He is a writer, and it is in his nature to write to make things readable. Would this book have been as "fantastical" (as Oprah put it) if he had wrote the pure "truth"? No. It would be boring, it would be something that any person could write, it would not be inspirational. Do I feel James Frey wrote the truth? YES. And I believe that he wrote the truth as he knew it, something even MORE personal than I, or anyone except HE, can imagine. I'LL SAY IT AGAIN: WHO ARE WE TO PERCEIVE HIS REALITY?

I give him all the credit in the world. Not only did he face Oprah, and the world, and an entire audience full of people against him, he admitted to making a mistake in not making sure Oprah and his readers understood where he was coming from. I don't feel duped by him or anyone, though - I feel the memoir is an inspiration, one which I will continue to recommend, and one which I will continue to defend.

Oprah went below herself today. She says that this process has been embarassing for her. How dare she use that word in the presence of James Frey, a man who has had his dignity stomped on (more than once), and this time in front of millions of people. I would say that the show on this afternoon is more embarassing for her than any part of "this process" has been before.

73.

Thu, 26 Jan 2006 03:31:44 GMT

so how about that one tree FREAKIN hill!? huh? such a good episode tonight. chad finally cut his hair and it really looked good, especially when he did that thing with his eyebrow... and james lafferty is just growing up right before my eyes. tonight made me realize all of the things i would do to that boy. seriously. go catch some screen caps and argue with me...... HA, and props to mesmerizd, the only person who can make fun of my one tree hill night parties and get away with it! ♥

i am so sick and tired of hearing about james frey's "made up memoir". it disgusts me. a million little pieces WAS ARGUABLY THE BEST BOOK I'VE EVER READ. it is beyond inspirational - it gives insight into a world i would never have experienced otherwise, a world which is sadly plaguing the lives of so many people in our society. addiction. the book captured me from page one, and i didn't put it down until i finished it. i am so tired of people questioning james' credibility. as far as the general public are concerned, whether his novel is one hundred percent true or not is TOTALLY TRIVIAL.

people have no concept of reality. we're all biased by our own emotions. the way i recall an event and the way you recall the same event differ based on our predispositions, our feelings throughout the event, and so much else. who is to judge "reality"? this man was on drugs so much so that he was told he should be dead, and that if he used again he would no doubt die. period. who the fuck are you to perceive his reality through this time in HIS life? who are you to tell him that certain things COULDN'T HAVE happened? no one. how dare you.

james admits to fabricating his novel. guess what, life's not a fairy tale, not even one about drugs that ends with sobriety. and it's not a movie, or a novel, either. this was his life, and he needed to turn it into something people would want to - nay, COULD, read. if he did so by saying that he cut his cheek instead of the area on the inside of his mouth between his chin and bottom lip, I'M FUCKING OKAY WITH THAT. and you should be too. "oh, it just put me off, i couldn't even finish the book." good, you don't deserve to read the rest of this book, thank you for contributing to his salary, and SHUT THE FUCK UP. also, think of all that he was forced to cover up concerning leonard. there are limits he simply could not push, and i am prepared to accept that.

I'M GOING TO TELL YOU ALL A TRUE STORY! when i was five, my mom put pink eyeshadow on me, dressed me in a an adorable multicoloured striped dress, and we went on a road trip to a country music concert an hour and a half away. on the way we stopped at mcdonalds, where i ate chicken nuggets. finally at the country music concert, i had the best time of my life. my mom and i danced and sung all day and had an amazing time. after the concert, i met one of my idols (at the time). i had my picture taken with her, and she signed it. i was absolutely smitten. i've wanted to be a singer ever since.

okay, now the truth is that my mom is a health freak and hardly let me eat mcdonalds EVER. so, we really didn't go to mcdonalds before that concert, and i really didn't eat chicken nuggets. do you feel let down? well, YOU SHOULDN'T. why? because it's not important. you got the jist of that story, you picked up what i was putting down, and whether or not i ate at mcdonalds is such a ridiculously stupid thing to dwell on, i trust that you wouldn't discredit my entire story, or the heartfelt emotion i put into it, just because of that small fucking detail.

see?

oprah, thursday, 4pm. be there.

71.

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 01:25:01 GMT

first semester.
english - 96
teacher cadet - 99
gov/econ - 95
physics - 93

being rewarded (with money) for grades (like all these a's) would be really nice.

i have never beat a game of freecell before in my life until yesterday, when i randomly opened it, read a manual on the internet, and beat twelve games in a row.

i may have a problem tomorrow morning with my schedule. i submitted my form for early dismissal but it has on my records on the school's website that i still have a fourth block (government ap). the guidance office will be absolutely packed tomorrow for schedule changes but i'm going to have to do something about this.

65.

Thu, 22 Dec 2005 07:27:52 GMT

i am going to ohio tomorrow. will be there til the 27th. next tuesday.

if i don't talk to you before, i'd like to wish everyone a HAPPY HOLIDAYS, whatever it is you're celebrating... no i'm not being FPC, i'm being respectful.

i love my extra special iPod nano that i got on tuesday night. ;X picture commentary will come soon enough.

63.

Tue, 13 Dec 2005 23:05:55 GMT

they're fixing my car.
no new one.

i woke up this morning with strep throat.
fan-fucking-tastic. :)
i had to run all over the city too, trying to get a prescription filled.
who runs out of amoxicillin? that's gotta be the most commonly filled prescritption ever.
you'd think they'd have truckloads of that shit.

anyway.
i'm going to the game, now
against my mother's wishes.
because we're playing socastee!
and i must be there.

how random of me to get sick.

if you haven't read A MILLION LITTLE PIECES BY JAMES FREY YOU NEED TO DO SO NOW.. i have not finished it yet but it is amazing so far. aaaand i am obsessed with him, and oprah, slightly.

but anyway.
three more days til winter vacation. :D

58.

Fri, 02 Dec 2005 00:06:59 GMT

accepted to college of charleston.
i'm beyond excited right now.
expect a post in which i am freaking out later.

53.

Thu, 24 Nov 2005 16:01:37 GMT

happy thanksgiving

hope yours is better than mine will be.

46.

Sun, 06 Nov 2005 18:54:05 GMT

the thought project

postsecret

defunktion.net

31.

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 23:24:55 GMT

god Himself painted the sky tonight.

and unrelated: french braid & new shirt :)

23.

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 03:00:03 GMT

i have resigned at a forum i regularly post at and love because of one, maybe two, members. i find this to be incredibly sad and definitely a loss on my part but it's either them or me and they are both people that like to make others miserable so i know it won't be them. sacrifices.

oh well.

08.

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 04:07:20 GMT

i've wanted an ipod for a really long time now but unfortunately i can't plausibly afford one right now.

the good news? you can help. :) please just click here, sign up, take as little as a ONE QUESTION QUIZ, and start trying to earn your own ipod. i'd appreciate it more than you know! and if you comment with the link to your account, i'll return the favour.

please please please! ♥

03.

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 20:21:39 GMT

oprah's special report on new orleans.

i can't watch this. i can't fathom what they're going through. since when do we let people in this world suffer like they are? since when do we let americans suffer like this? it would be devastating enough if they all lost their homes to the flooding in the city. but they're losing so much more than that. these people have families, all of them, and they're not with them. furthermore, they don't even know if their loved ones are ALIVE. women are missing babies. children. husbands. mothers and fathers.

doctor: "what do you have written on your arm?"
woman: "my name and my son's name. in case we die."

today was a terrible day for me. but at least i was able to walk into my home, and see my family.

please do all that you can to help these people.

01.

Sun, 04 Sep 2005 22:01:19 GMT

hi, this is amy. i was residing previously at x_boobies. i needed a new name.

here we are.

please comment to be added.